36/40 Over and over the very same questions are screaming in mind. Questions about my own limits and desire of control about what is to come. From what I know, from what I have discovered, from what I have experienced,  there is a set of truths that I am unable to escape from.    The […]

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The Hidden Sun

19/40 The Darkness is a tempting journey. It triggers you in unknown ways. It plays with your brain, offering it the forbidden fruit of knowledge. We all wish to know, to reveal the mysteries of the Universe. We wish to know how the things work so we can make them work for us. Even when […]

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16/40 No endings, no beginnings. Just unconditional dreaming.   Countless realms are rallying in a single glimpse of time. Dimensions with hidden treasures of wisdom are playing the game of reflections inside my mind. Everything is one, one is everything. Simultaneously, what I have dreamt of is here, right next to me, and it has […]

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The power of the emotions

11/40 I am almost laughing. It’s the eleventh day, I suddenly realized something that completely changes my perspective. It is even a bit shocking to me, but somehow, somehow I am finding in it some divine irony. I love that. All my life, I have felt guilty of my emotions. Being too-emotional comes nowadays as […]

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The power of self-detachment

1/40 Nothing in this world is truly mine.  I am not mine.    There are many levels of attachment – to things, to memories, to emotions, to models, to our own self-individualization. The first three are easily recognizable. Somehow we manage even to detach from the models from time to time using different techniques – […]

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My Reality

The hardest thing in my life – to stick to a reality.   This blog post is important to me. Usually, my posts are late-night expressions of something I have been through. Realized emotions, taken lessons, experience, and wishes. My posts are my little pieces of art, that is not art exactly, but my understanding […]

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The point of no return

Have you ever had that feeling that you just want to hide? To escape from the reality. To run and run and run until you reach the point of no return? To start over? To leave behind cause it is just too much to handle? I escaped from many things in my life. For the […]

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C’mon, life! Give me a riddle! Internally mad but eternally brave at heart, the unsolved mysteries have ever been my soft spot. Lifting up questions like never before. Changing my external expression. Spinning in circles and creating spirals of yesterdays, todays and tomorrows. In my life, there have been so many “after all”-s, so many […]

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The big things in life do not happen in a day, or in a minute. They do not just appear, no matter that sometimes it looks like they do. Instead, the life prepares you slowly for them, the life prepares them slowly and gently for you. Every day and every minute. The big changes, the […]

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The Best of Me

I’ve heard that I am not an easy one so many times. Not a “normal” one, whatever this means. I’ve heard I am complicated and unpredictable. I have heard so many things about me. Actually, most of it is true. I am not an easy one. But the thing is I am not easy, only […]

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